Grateful Friday

I haven't done one of these in ages, it's time.

This week I'm grateful for:

• my R and his strength
• that he's going through all this immigration stuff for us
• my wonderful job
• being busy
• my bed - hopefully I'll have some quality time with it this weekend
• the people I work with
• my new support system
• possibilities
• our recordable DVD player
• wine, wine, wine
• learning how to have faith that all will work out
• the love of Valentine's Day - not all the crap that goes with it though!
• my parents - both have tumbled on the ice this week, sore and bruised
• our camera
• Silvina and Mariano
• cottage cheese and fruit together
• leftovers - so I don't have to make lunch every night!
• Friday Night Lights
• Grey's Anatomy - but if they kill off Meredith, I may not be able to watch it anymore!
• our webcam
• not living out east in the cold
• the sun we had as a surprise on the weekend - we played tennis!
• my health plan to cover prescriptions!
• my friend Jo for always emailing me
• steamed milk with sugar free vanilla syrup
• hugs at work today
• the Brits on tv last night
• where we live
• being loved

Have a great weekend!

Lessons I'm learning

my bike!

There are a lot of lessons swirling around me these days, once again. Probably the same ones that are always there, trying to get my attention. Learn to let go, learn to live one day at a time and not project into the future, learn to trust that I can handle whatever I need to, learn to let go of the outcome. Always coming up, just in different forms, different situations. R's residency application always gets me stressed and there is absolutely no reason to be worried. Worrying about the health of those close to me when I cannot do anything about the future. Getting sad about the state of the planet and the polar bears who are losing their ice. Worrying about making a mistake, or not having enough money, or not being able to get pregnant when we want to, or having to move away from Vancouver before we're ready - it goes on and on like a broken record sometimes. I've probably even blogged about these very same lessons and issues!

I'm learning that worrying does nothing but waste my energy. I'm learning that taking things one day at a time helps to keep them from overwhelming me. I've learned that I can tell myself I'm not going to worry, just for today, and it works. I'm learning that the outcome is not up to me, but that I can believe the Universe is friendly and hope for the best. I'm learning that I have a very powerful mind and if I can train it to think more creative and positive thoughts, that the fear and anxiety may have nowhere left to live! I'm learning to keep things from funneling down a negative spiral all the time - especially since there is no reason not to believe things will be alright. I'm learning to believe in possibility.

I am learning that learning to let go is the most important gift I can give myself. I feel like this is my chance, right now. This is my chance to let the lesson sink in, that its ok to let go, that its safe to let go, that if I can let go (of his residency, of the future, of my fears) everything will still be ok.

How do you let go? what works for you?